5/18/2011

The Dark Places of My Heart


I’ve mentioned what a stressful few weeks it has been for me. Yes, all the things that have been happening are good things. But stress is stress, and for me at least, it often exposes the dark parts of my heart. That’s what has been slowing happening this time. I’m grateful to see those places, because I don’t want them there. But of course they are painful and that pain adds to the overall stress, even in repentance. It’s emotionally draining at a time I am already emotionally drained. The one comfort? These days I am more willing to see those places before they turn completely toxic and spew out over everyone else. I’d much rather confront my sin before everyone else sees it, too!

Anyone else find it emotionally draining to confront the sin in your own heart?


2 comments:

Ruth said...

Hi Anne, Ruth from Booktalk & More - I was so excited to see you commented on my South Riding blog - I am really looking forward to your new book this fall!

Thank you so much for your timely post! This is something I've been dealing with this week myself - while it's been difficult, I'm learning and embracing dealing with these sins/dark places of the heart BEFORE they turn toxic. God is good. :)

Anne Mateer said...

Thanks, Ruth! You're are the first person to tell me they are looking forward to reading my book that isn't my family or my good friend!(Although I'm thinking now that makes you my friend!) :)

I am enjoying your blog, too.

It's still painful to deal with our sin but so many fewer repercussions when we don't let those ugly places spew into public first! And for that I'm SO grateful!