Do you ever get stuck? I’m in that place right now. I guess you might have noticed I didn’t post on Wednesday. It wasn’t that I didn’t have time to write something. In fact, I had a piece written and ready to go. And then I second guessed myself. I took it down.

I find myself doing that a lot lately. Writing a facebook status— then deleting it. Writing a tweet— then deleting it. Even writing pages of prose— then deleting. 

I’m stuck. I say what I have to say, or what the story says to me, then I read over it. I waffle. Not that what I’ve had to say is in any way bad. Or mean. Or inappropriate. But I worry that it is stupid. Or irrelevant. Or just . . . forgettable. Suddenly I’m so much more conscious of what other people will think about my words. Or worse yet, if my words will cause anyone to think of me at all.

In many ways, therein lies the answer. I’m thinking too much of myself. Assigning too much importance to the markings on my screen. And so I pray. Again. Fervently. I pray for words to flow and for my only concern to be whether or not the Giver of Words notices and approves. If they make Him smile. If they bring Him joy. 

I’m stuck. But I’m working to get unstuck. Or rather I’m trying to be still, so that the Lord can free me from the mire of my own making. 


Wendy Paine Miller said...

So cool you are working to get unstuck.

I can completely relate to this. Recently I wrote a post I swore was too cheesy to put out there. But I did and it got a lot of response. I even woke in the morning certain I wasn't going to hit publish, but I also knew my thoughts had been messing with me at night and the message pointed to God.

I end up printing a decent amount of goofy stuff or stupid or inappropriate, but I'm hoping God uses it in one way or another and I love it when I feel free to just put it out there and not worry.

You're talking to me today, lady!
~ Wendy

Anne Mateer said...

Thanks for your encouragement, Wendy! :)

Robin said...

Oh I can so relate! I haven't posted in such a long time and I know it is because I think those same thoughts. Thank you dear girl!